The Princess Escapes

Chapter I

The princess had been lonely a long time. He had cast a rather potent spell all those years ago that kept her captive within those cold tower walls. She could see out the window, see the country, the changing weather and the world swirling around, but could feel none of the joy. She was so sad, so completely sad, just the way the evil prince intended her to be.

Certainly she had been visited in that tower by a steady parade of well-wishers, doctors, court jesters, friends, and family who ministered to her pain, seeking to draw her out, hoping to gain a steady foothold against the sadness. Sometimes the darkness would temporarily withdraw and for brief periods of time the princess was visited by feelings of contentment, happiness, and sometimes even a hint of joy. These visits were always over too soon, and the evil spell quickly reclaimed her, ferreting out all traces of calm, or creativity, and certainly ending any sense of a connection with others. Our princess locked in the dark tower, surrounded by happy sights but the happy places as distant as if she were living on the moon.

One evening as the princess was looking out the tower window and thinking again of throwing herself through the opening to crash far below on the rough stones lining her prison, she had an epiphany. She thought it might be possible to simply begin walking down the winding steps leading out of the tower, carrying herself to a safe and better place. She had an idea that the spell could be broken only by a habit of making her own happiness, day in and day out over a very long period of time. She knew that she had become habituated to her own sadness and that she was terribly broken. The princess realized that no one could fix her brokenness, no one could save her from the tower, no one could save her except for herself.

She made a plan that upon waking the next morning she would smile. It was a beginning. After smiling she planned to be happy to see the child that lived in a room just outside the tower & thought it would be pleasant to make a lunch for this child to take to school. After smiling and being happy to see the child and making the lunch, the princess thought it might be lovely to chose something pretty to wear for her first day of happiness.

On the morning of the first day of happiness our princess awoke and remembered the plan. She smiled, tentatively. Then rising up from her slumber she greeted the child with a rather more convincing smile. Lunch made, beautiful clothes selected, she steeled herself to meet the enemy, any enemy that is, that might appear in the form of a disappointment or cold weather or well, a disappointment taking on any form at all. Then, leaving the tower expecting the evil spell to cause buckets of rain to fall, to soak her spirit and her beautiful costume, the princess was surprised to find the sun shining, the daylight bright – casting a shimmering sparkle over the lake and over the township. The first day of happiness was well underway. She had a sense that she would need days and days of happiness to undo the spell and to free her, finally from the darkness of the tower.

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Lost & Found

This hole in my heart?
a small leak
Not life threatening
yet ever-present
a lump in my throat
a sense that something vital is missing
That I’ve lost something
That I’ll never be found

The tear developed slowly
starting in those moments
immediately after the “I do’s”
The trials, the deception
ending though,
long before meeting you

So you see
You are not the cause
Of this hole in my heart
This tiny, but steady wellspring of sadness

In fact, when I’m with you
My heart feels whole
No leaks
No fear
No lump

You make me laugh
& smile
& hope
& we do funny yoga poses

When I’m with you
or when I know you’re thinking of me
my heart feels whole

I just wanted you to know
and my heart wanted to tell you

thanks

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Love Without Laundry

The man asked, “What is it that you want?”
She boldly answered, “love.”
He shrugged, looked away & replied, “I won’t marry again. I like living on my own.”
She understood his confusion regarding love & domestic duty so she gently, patiently explained,  “I’m looking for love, not a roommate.”

And so it was that this woman thought it to be both a lovely & a remarkably reasonable idea to fall in love without presumption of sharing laundry tasks.

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Mollusks & Sea Walls, a Love Story (sort of)

Audacious
impudent
impertinent
throwing herself
at this salty wall
forming a fierce attachment
without so much as an invitation

The sea wall
might have been flattered
such a pretty, charming mollusk
but he barely knew her
he wasn’t in the market
with more pressing concerns
a shoreline to protect
20,000 Leagues to manage
sand dollars
not floating a water logged economy

Puzzled
by this silly
starry fish eyed mollusk
with love on her mind
planting herself at port
quintessentially hopeful & foolish
all in the same moment
& all in equal parts

seeking his attention
transparent as shallow water
uncomplicated, unsophisticated
forming a vacuum sealed bond
(because that’s what mollusks do)

what mollusks fear
is being an imposition

what sea walls fear
is being preoccupied
at that moment
when an uncomplicated,
unsophisticated
transparent as shallow water
yet true blue as a child’s depiction of the pacific,

sea mollusk

comes to kiss his face
& to offer a sweet, secure,
vacuum sealed,
sand dollars in the bank,
sort of love

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Safety Belt, Hard Hat, a Kiss: Whatever It Takes

my dear friend
you’ve been reading her memoir
the ramblings of an angry woman
wounded well before you met her
scarred beyond a reasonable doubt
while still a child

yet, in a revisionist, vitriolic, rendering
it seems you are to blame,
you are the traitor

she needs you to believe this storyline
not to merely wound you
but to obliterate & bury you

she is seeking to decimate
the monsters under the bed
that nightmare she’s never shed
a hole in her heart that can’t be fixed

projection
transpose unmentionable horrors
onto a punching bag
that doesn’t strike back

she needs you to believe this story
because she is seeking to bury her pain
in a case of mistaken identity
for what was, certainly
unimaginable childhood suffering

but my sweet man
you make a lousy punching bag
and this memoir is not your story
you loved her, but you couldn’t save her
hard to save souls on the borderline
& harder to breath as she battles
seeking revenge, chasing ghosts

a safety belt
hard hat
bulletproof vest
a compass
flashlight
emergency kit
a kiss

whatever it takes
however long
I’ll read you a different story
but only the funny, lovely parts
& only the ones with happy endings

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Release & Return

Lost in a good book
adrift on a summer breeze
not looking to be found
but, if discovered
please release & return
to 137 North Easy Breezy Street

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A Brazen Act of Summer Love

Come
play awhile
leave your sadness
for the afternoon
the summer is young
the sun kisses your face
bare legs, bare feet, brave heart

we will catch falling stars
make wishes,
dream & never sleep
we will tame the wild hammock
tap dance on rooftops
toast white gooey orbs
to golden perfection

Come
take my hand
& for a few lovely hours
the day, you & I
will be three musketeers
all for one & one for all
in a brazen act of summer love

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Come and Kiss Me

kissing you
it’s all I can think of

sheets still a tangle
all points of pleasure at high alert

as if
you were still riding beneath

fast and slow
powerful and sweet

come and kiss me
I can accomplish nothing
will be of no use
in this tangled
sweat-soaked dream state

the night is young
you know the way
come kiss me now

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Safe Passage, Not Sidewalk Art

You know that sad girl?
the one that sometimes
stops in to see you?

she says she feels so small
tells you she is irreparably broken
says loneliness is erasing all trace of her

she worries that soon
she will be
just a chalk drawing on the sidewalk

scared to tell you, but
she longs to lay her head in your lap
wants you to love her like your own child

this girl, worn down
from lies, betrayal, theft
reeling now in pain, confusion,
having lost her oldest child
in a wicked chasm

Why are you embarrassed
to be seen with her?
how can you be so unkind?
in a rush you tell her
how lovely your days are
I believe you characterized
your life as ‘enviable’
good health, good work, good friends
goodness knows how
you yammer on so incessantly
but, please! it’s not material
for a movie of the week
that movie?
already made.

Jimmy Stewart
& bells & angels acquiring wings
so don’t shame this girl
by telling her it’s a wonderful life
she needs you to understand
needs you to love her
she visits infrequently
doesn’t haunt you day & night
makes room for your happier visitors

so i hope you can find a way to be kind
to respect her story, to offer safe passage
she doesn’t ring your bell often
but I’ve noticed her there
standing sometimes on the porch

funny, but I almost took her for you
an uncanny resemblance,
perhaps you can claim her
as a girl you know
as a girl you know quite well

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Torii Hunter, Woody Allen, Matisse. She’s All That & More

My little sister
She has no idea
how amazing she is

So many talents
so little time
to enumerate them all

Ability to make the throw
from the wall @ center field
nailing home plate
with razor sharp accuracy

walks on the court
leg brace secure
the competition smirks
then doesn’t
she mops the floor
with their astonishment

Has a natural artistic sensibility
the window designers
@ Bergdorf Goodman
would trade
ivy league art degrees for

Level headed
Plain spoken
Wicked smart
Well read

love her with all my heart
for many reasons
but especially this
she makes me laugh
even when
the world collapses

She makes me laugh
my amazing little sister

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